So, I know that there is one more baby out there for our family. I honestly get sick sometimes when I think about that. I feel like I have my hands FULL! Claire is giving me a run for my money, I have Ava starting to walk, and Grant who isn't potty trained, but thinking that naps aren't that great. According to our normal scheduling it would be time for us to be thinking about having another baby. I never wanted my kids to be that far apart. I wanted them to be friends, and have others to play with. I also have to admit that I am loving all the clothes I am fitting into. Is that selfish or what?? I have lost all my baby weight and it feels good!! I can excercise without wanting to die, and I am quite happy. I don't have a husband around very often, and I won't for 3 years. So here is my question, am I being selfish?? Should I just give in and get this over with, or should I wait?? I am not getting any younger that is for sure, and is it fair to my kids to have a baby now when I am stretched so thin? I just feel like I am being pulled in a million different ways and I don't know if I can cope with another little baby to take care of right now. I want to be a good mom, but doesn't that mean taking care of myself too? I guess I still have a lot of thinking and praying to do, but for now I will stick with the thought that our family is just right!
Monday, June 20, 2011
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That is a tough decision! I'm sure that as you guys pray about it that you'll get your answer & it will all work out. Good luck!
If you're feeling that stressed out about it, then that would seem to me that maybe that's your answer that now's not the right time. I mean where's the law that says for kids to be best friends they have to be 18 months- 2 years apart. Honestly I'm close to all of my sisters and share very special bonds with Cami & Jesse who are 3 1/2 & 5 1/2 years younger than me respectively.
You know we agonized for a year about putting in adoption papers again. We knew we could and actually felt like we "should" because we knew our family wasn't complete after Gideon, but the whole idea of it was becoming so stressful for me was literally making me ill. So we just decided to back off for a while and figured we'd keep praying and trust that the Lord would guide us when the time was right.
Sure enough when we were least expecting anything we got a phone call that Parker was on her way.
I realize your situation and life are different and only you guys & Heavenly Father can know when the timing is right.
I don't think you are being selfish. I think you know your limitations and so does Heavenly Father. Those doubts would not be there if the Lord and yourself knew it to be the right time for another child to bless your home.
You are a wonderful woman and mother and don't ever think any less of yourself. I am a better person for knowing you.
I felt like I was reading a page out of my journal. I am sure you are a wonderful mother and you will know when the time is right! I enjoyed having your little owen in primary a few weeks ago. What a cutie!
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